Maybe??

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Maybe' it's me 

Maybe' it's you

'Maybe' it could have been us or 'Maybe' it could never be at all

'Maybe' it's best to just let it be or 'Maybe' it's best to hold on

And 'Maybe I will always be left with 'MAYBE' ; MAYBE??

Anger

Anger is talking over my sanity today.

Arrrghhhhhhhhhhhhh  (Extreme Disgust) 

 I just can't help how I feel.  I  want to be left alone. I always can't keep the people around me happy when I myself  am suffering !!! 

???

I listen to him, I listen to her

I listen to all the things that you people have to say.

I listen, listen and just listen each and everyday

But will you people ever understand

how deep it hurts to see all of us like this

how deep it cuts to see us falling apart

and how I struggle not to feel a thing. 

No , i can't be normal because things aren't the way they used to be

No, i can't keep calm because it's getting worse everyday

How will i make this stop? Will listening to all these stop what is happening?

Will everything ever get back to normal? Please, please tell me because I can't fight it anymore.
so with all the dying hopes and  the bitter reality, 

 I slam the door and walk away!

"the heart can feel things no one can"

Another day wasted

What a waste of a day

What a waste of time, i realize yet i feel like a wingless butterfly

I sit here in my bed staring straight at the ceiling so red 

not a slightest of idea of what to do next!

I stare at the blue sky turning grey.

and think of how the clouds just got mixed in the way.

I don't know what is that that's been missing 

and understand less the feeling that is controlling me

 may be it is time for me to find a new hope as i have lost it all, i know 

I need something to BELIEVE in again.

words failed !!!

I know you not but I know you true 

The feeling ran deeply through
The kiss that killed when
the thrill was brought in blend

then the expectations,

the face of  the reality,

the bitter truth
the disappointment 

yet, the uncertainty.

I go to bed thinking about you.

Thinking about what you said,
thinking about what we shared

what we were.

No tears, No pain, only US.

Now I no longer know where I stand.

Should I risk my heart for something uncertain?

but the question is, what was it then that made it certain?

I can't bring myself to say more, 

and can't find the strength to ask you once more.

Disappointed by how words tremendously failed to convey what the depth of me just knew.

I decide to be silent!

I know things can't be the turned around

 Because I don't want to be wrapped up in the whispers of my understanding.

 Wedged in the drought, and waiting for rain.

 Caught in the lies, and believing the pain. 

A mixture of distrust; Forgiven?? or Confused??

Why do I choose to get drenched in the darkest rain, 

just to keep him from the burning pain? 

I decide to be silent And quietly gather the lies spoken.